And this is the last time I'll forget you, I wish I could.

Could you look me in the eye and tell me that you're happy now?
Would you tell it to my face, you haven't been replaced.
Are you happy now?


I really don't feel like working in GoLive. Like, I never do, but today I like...really don't want to.

Maybe it's not good, but I've been thinking about Sam a lot lately. Not like I never do, because I always have, but like, I've been thinking about him in a weird way.
Not like anything abnormal, but yeah, Ryan is right. It's been 6 months and I still..STILL am head over heels for him. I was going to write a note to him and have him read it today. There are still some things I need to clear up so my mind can actually rest. I was going to ask him to drive us to like, the park or something and have him read it. Problems:

1. he probably won't want to waste gas
2. he probably won't want to see and/or talk to me
3. he probably will think it's stupid and tell me to forget about him already
4. I HAVEN'T WRITTEN ANYTHING. I suppose it'd take me a while to perfect everything...and that will DEFINATELY take me nearly forever.

So what's the reason? Why can't I stop thinking about him? Good question. Tell me when you've figured it out.




I miss him.
I don't care who reads this.
I don't care anymore.
I just want my Sammy back.

I Love Samuel Vincent Alaniz
i will get you back somehow
i'm not going to let you forget about me
because i'm never going to forget you
i love you please come home


It's funny how they use the term "a broken heart." you think it's just like a metaphor or whatever but literally, my chest hurts right where my heart is. It is broken.

Anyone have some glue?