Burndt Jamb

::rocks out to weezer::

Well, i can't really "rock out" right now. I'm in class for one, and i don't have my baby. By that i mean, my guitar. I hate this class. It's so noisy and crap. I can't wait till we move into Gaines' class. But i don't know, maybe i won't like that either.

Well, i think the plan has been put on hiatus. Steven doesn't think it's a good idea because he doesn't think Carl even likes me that much, and then he went and told Ander. Ander got all depressed and stuff because he likes me and he was under the impression i had already carried out with the plan, and i haven't because i'm a weenie. I want to go out with Carl really bad because i like him a lot but i don't want to make Ander sad. He's a really cool guy. And i know it sucks when you like someone and they go out with someone else. I think everyone knows how that feels. It feels like crap. Anyway, yeah i think the plan will be on hiatus for a while. Maybe it'll come up later or something. Who knows?

Ah. And Chris makes me so mad/sad/fustrated/depressed. He was at the game on Friday and i asked him how he was feeling and he was like, "What are you my counselor now or something?" Oh pah-leeze. I know this is a petty thing to be all whiney about but like he didn't give me my own page in his buddyprofile. The only thing about me says, "Hey i can trust u more than a lot of other people. hope ur always there." Yeah, i'm always here, but he never tells me anything if i'm supposedly one of his best friends. How am i supposed to make him feel better if i don't know what's wrong? And if i know something's wrong, and i try to get it out of him, and he gets mad, what am i supposed to do? It's stupid. Then the whole thing about us. Like maybe going out. What a bunch of bull. I knew we'd never go out. In the back of my head i did. Anyway, he told me if things didn't work out with Kristin, that there was a 70% chance that we'd go out. Then that night at his house. And then like, he told me no girlfriends for a while. Which i could understand. Then all of a sudden, he's going out with Nia! What the hell? I just like, fell off the face of the Earth. I want to see him again to ask him basically what the hell was he thinking, and then i don't want to see him at all because i want to beat the crap out him with a cheap spork from Taco Bell. Ugh. It's about time to go, so i'll drop another entry tomorrow since i didn't really get to go into detail and whatnot.

-deanna