I'm sorry, but i don't got it on Lockdown.

Lately everything sucks so much.

Carl likes downie AGAIN. Why???
Chris is going out with Nia. Of course, i'm happy for him because he's not sad anymore. And that's always a plus. But of course, you can't have your cake and eat it too, so yeah i'm kinda depressed because it's like i just fell off the face of the earth and he doesn't care about me anymore. And that night i went to his house and stuff, it's like scarred my mind. I can't forget about how we kissed. How it felt, how he looked at me. It's like intoxicating and it won't go away. And the more i think about it the more i like him and the more i want to do it again. But i can't. Probably, never again. And it hurts. A lot.
My knee. Well, my right knee... i won't say. My left knee, well everyone knows what's wrong with my left knee. It's the reason i'm Crutchie.
Someone stole my TI-83 Calculator. I am so frickin' pissed. WHY THE HELL WOULD ANYONE STEAL A FREAKING CALCULATOR?! I swear people are so damn stupid sometimes.
My dad. He's always yelling at me and crap and i don't do anything. It's annoying and it makes me want to leave. Not like, go to heaven leave but like leave my house leave. When i'm old enough of course. It makes me want to leave, and to never ever come back. Well, not never ever, but like call 4 times a year and not tell them about anything and leave them in the dark and see how they like it.
My toes. There's always something wrong with them, so i won't even bother describing them.
There's always something wrong with me. Emotionally, physically.

I was just thinking, i'm just like Rivers. He's said before that he's emotionally unstable. One minute he's like a rebel, then he's a punk, then he's the quiet brooding artist, and then he's like, the outgoing rockstar. He's constantly changing and whatnot. I think i'm exactly like that. I like being the quiet person, but also i enjoy being the loud person. When i go out of town i like to be the "quiet book reading know-it-all" basically, like Hermione from Harry Potter. I don't know i'm just really weird.
The people at my table are so mean to each other (Warning: Explicit Content):

"Hoe!"
"Shut the fuck up!"
"I'll burn you, shit i got big jokes!"
"Whatever"
"Hey Frogger, does this make me look fat?"

Yeah.

ROFLOMGWTFBBQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know, i just wanted to say that.

Stupid Mr. Hip-Hop. He has popcorn and i'm dying of hunger.
I wanted to listen to my cd player, but i didn't get to today because i don't want the sub to take it. I wore my "bluescene" jacket today and like you could tell if i had headphones on and stuff.

OH CRAP.
I HAVE A SPANISH TEST TODAY.
AND I DON'T KNOW ANY OF THE WORDS.
FREAKING A.
I'M GOING TO BOMB THIS QUIZ. AND I NEED GOOD QUIZZES IN THERE.
AAAAHHHHRRRRGGGGHHHH.

I wish Chris liked me.
I wish Carl liked me.
I wish i still had my calculator.
I wish my knee hadn't been hurt in soccer.
I wish my other knee would heal quick.
I wish above all that Carl would like me.
But he doesn't.
And won't.
[blows horn, throws some confetti]
Welcome to my pity party.
Sorry.

-deanna