Super automatic pilot motor running down circles in the parking lot

Alexis told me, "goodnight love" last night. Wow. I wonder if he really meant it in the way that I hoped he did. Soon, maybe. He smiled all big when he gave me a hug today, and he squeezed me and kind of rubbed my back. I like him so so so much. He's so awesome. Sometimes I wish he would just ask. We act like we are. We basically are, minus the hand-holding and the "officialness" end product that comes with the question and the answer

This song is exactly what I'm thinking. Hallelujah! Hahah. : p

I think this is like, the best playlist I've ever made since the "You <3" playlist...or the "rad scientist, yah?!" playlist.

This song reminds me of him:

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not
And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way
My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
It talks, it says, "You, oh, you are so cool."
"Scissor shaped across the bed, you are red, violent red."
You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes
And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)
I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...


haha that sounds kind of creepy. kind of.