Jesus taught, "Stop judging by mere appearances, and make a right judgment." - (John 7:24)

Okay i'm not going to say very much today, as i am supposed to be researching these dumb e-card things for my Crucible project. Talk about gayness in the anus.

Okay so last night i kinda asked Chris out. It was more of a joke from Missy and I. Then i kinda turned it from a joke to something real. I don't think i should have done that. Worst case scenario, he turns me down when 1) he's 2 years younger than me and 2) i didn't really mean to ask him in a serious kind of way. Zack said he loved me, but i seriously doubt it. If he loved me, he would have gone out with me in the first place, right? I guess. I'm so stupid when it comes to this kind of thing. If this keeps up, i'm never getting married. Unless i stumble by Rivers and he's like "AH MARRY ME". Yeah.

I wonder what he will say at therapy today. Maybe he will say yes to me asking him out. That'd put me in a weird situation, being that i didn't really mean to ask him out in the first place, and i was wating for him to ask ME. But what if he says no? That's kind of self-degrading. Asking a 7th grader out, not intentionally, and him saying no to you anyway. How freaking pathetic! Then there's the whole chance of him not even bringing it up. Which is a slim to none chance, and slim left town. Either that, or he'll ask me if he can listen to my mp3 player. Or he'll whine about how Logan is being a pissant, and how he wants to kick him and stuff during their game next Saturday. Okay, i know he can get kinda pissy sometimes, but like, kicking him isn't going to help anything. I know he was like "UHH I JUST WANT TO MAKE HIM MORE EHHH MAD" but i thought they were like, best friends, and best friends don't try to purposly make each other mad. Whatever, he's a weird-o. Doug, (Dong Epsee HAHAHA) was telling me that Chris is a drama llama. At the Highland Homecoming, he was being all pissy with his ex even though he still liked her. I was like, "So you mean he was like, 'UHHH I DUN WAHNNA TALK TO YOOOU.' " and Doug basically said, yes though he has stopped being a drama llama. Great. I'm in love with a [past] drama llama. Bell rang, see ya.

-deanna